im back!

yeah nobody reads this, i know. but if thers anyone out there just know im back! and theres gonna be a ton of more stuff getting posted!

Clouds

i hear the clouds speak
the rain there quiet tears
the thunder crys for help
the lightning flashes of a razor

the clouds know me
they comfort me
they love me
they tell me secrets

i like the clouds
cry silent tears
slinence my own cries for help
and am comforted by the shining gleam of a razor

i unlike the clouds
leave with puffy eyes unnoticed
let my lips and tounge bleed against hard pressed teeth
watch blood flow from slits to floor

Why

did you choose me?
say that you loved me?

do i believe impossible things?
say the stupidest things?

am i truly unlovable?
cant i accept it?

WHY ASK?

im sorry

for everything

what i said
what i did

im sorry

for hating you
for loving you

im sorry

for the words i never
listened to you say

im sorry

i love you
and you love her

im sorry

i get angry
i get confused

im not sorry

i no longer love you
i love him

I HOPE YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE
BECAUSE I LOVE YOU AND NO ONE ELSE

This Is For You

theres no more damage

only scars remind me

of what i used to be

when i was without you

sometimes when i feel myself slipping

all i have to do is think of you

im truly trying

please dont forget about me

Broken

my heart

the bottle

my skin

all broken

my mind wants to forget
my heart wants to die

why cant i let go?